I started transitioning at an earlier part of my life, HRT 3 different times through my 20’s and 30’s but never stayed on the path. I wish I would’ve just kept on going through transition but life and career and family was something I feared losing if I continued. I haven’t dressed in years now, I am married to a very good woman who doesn’t have any idea of my past, or my sexuality when I was younger. I hoped these tendencies would fade and I could just be a normal guy lol. This part of me will never go away, my true self longs to be a woman in a relationship where I can be me.