2022 update:

I started HRT 14 months ago and progress has been slow, to say the least. But, progress has definitely been made. Good news, bad news. The good news is that my skin is getting softer and my boobs are starting to grow. The bad news is that I'm pretty much non-functional down below, so I'm pretty much exclusively a bottom now. I came out at work in mid-2019 and the reception is positive. Other than not coming out to my family, I'm pretty much out and proud and living my best life.

The 2019 profile:

Not a 100% out trans girl, but making progress towards that. I was on here more than 10 years ago, but after attempting to come out and having it go horribly, I went deep back into the closet, growing increasingly depressed. Thanks to my wife and close friends encouraging me to be myself, I am slowly making my way back out of the closet. I am out to a handful of friends and my wife, but not to family, as this was the source of my botched outing to begin with.

I am looking to make friends with other girls who understand what I am going through. My wife and cis female friends are empathetic and do what they can to help me, but they do not fully understand what I am feeling.

My wife also does not mind if I find a boyfriend on the side. If it happens, it happens.

It is comforting to finally be me again. After living in denial for the last 12 years, I feel alive and vibrant again.

I am figuring everything out as I go, and please do not judge me. I put on a lot of weight in 12 years of depression and some really stressful times. I am in the process of losing weight now, but I am still a plus sized girl for the time being.

I am happy to be back. I really cannot emphasize that enough.