Love everything outdoors.

I always gravitated towards soft sweet sensitive guys. I didn't realize why until later. I was attracted to and still am attracted to the honesty of a guy who can allow his feminine traits to show. Crossdressing, to me, is a very good way for a guy to really enjoy that feminine side. That is why I am attracted to crossdressers. I enjoy talking with them, hearing their stories, their passion for enjoying women's things. I also am fascinated by TG people as well.

I'm a woman inside and have now accepted that although I am struggling with how to deal with it. Wife does not know and I don't want her to know. Live in Texas. Have to worry about my external life and realistically don't see myself transitioning although I know it would help me mentally. Would love to add a photo, but due to circumstances can only use a neck down picture and that's not allowed here. I feel that wearing woman's clothing is just a normal extension of my inner feelings and having bigger boobs isn't a fetish, it's something that feels natural to me and looks acceptable because of my build. I don't think of myself as having any male parts and wish I was born that way. Don't like the term transgender as it implies that I'm something other than totally female, but understand that it's the used description. of my situation. I joined this site to talk to others that are in a similar situation as it is very lonely to be living my life even with a wonderful spouse. Trying to get over the depression, eating disorders and other manifestations of trying to be female and look and act that way while having to live as a male in my external world. The sexual aspect of this is just an extension of being a woman. Much like other women, I have fantasies; some romantic, some sensual, some sexual and some wild. And now for something completely different; hobbies include model railroading, biking, playing ice hockey and running.

I am a trans woman and love all sorts of activities including biking, obstacle courses, woodworking and fencing. I do love to read and play instruments (although not great at them!)