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About Me -- NEW - I see myself as a non-gender specific/mixed gender - Intersex - person who is Transgendered.

EDIT- Who am I? I used to think I was primarily a sensitive heterosexual person who enjoyed cross dressing and impersonating women. However, I am now sure I am transgender and I desire and wish I could partake in life totally as a woman. Also, I am a bit intersexed.

Additionally contributing to my feelings, because of my genetics - I have several known natural feminine characteristics such as some bone; small hands, narrow feet, small feminine, pixie like, looking face, feminine hair pattern and connective tissue characteristics. Also, until recently I had looks of someone 15 years my junior. If there is some deeper DNA related reason why my body has these attributes, such as extra X,s or a defective Y, I have not been tested and I do not do not currently know of any.

Over the years, these characteristics have lead many people to wonder what sex I was based on my outward appearance even though I did not try to hide my maleness. I have always been considered cute. When I was in my early teens almost everyone who did not know me first thought I was a girl. Later because I was also a product of the sixties; long hair and flowery clothes; some co-workers at a plant I worked at during college told me it took them several weeks to determine I was not a girl. They even made the remark "put a purse on your shoulder when you go shopping and see how many whistles you will get." I am sure my long hair and bell bottom jeans contributed some to the miss-labeling.

At one point in my mind I started to think well if I am mistaken as a woman I may as well go ahead and see if I can improve on that image. It was during this time I had facial, chest and leg laser hair removal and took some hormones for a few months. I also started to have my nails done and tried to lose weight. I got down to 138 pounds from my highest weight of 168. This weight change allowed me to wear many outfits and fit into several of my wife's old dresses. Once while I was at college my future wife helped me dress up in a pants outfit and we went to dinner together. No one even knew I was not a girl until I came back to my apartment and my roommate saw me and whistled. At that time I felt embarrassed. Over the years I have felt compelled to wear women's clothing out in public to see if anyone would notice. Three times for Halloween I dressed as a woman. One year my wife dressed as a man and she helped me into a very elegant light blue dress, made my make-up and treated me like a woman the whole evening. The comments from friends I got were they "were shocked" because I looked like a "beautiful woman" and how my hands looked "so feminine" with press on nails. One of my guy friends said I "should be escorted" back home because I looked so vulnerable. They also said my wife was not as convincing as I was. After that Halloween one of my woman friends remarked she had been so impressed by my illusion that she could close her eyes and open them expecting to see me as a woman again. She told my wife it took weeks for her to see me in her mind totally as a male. Other excursions into womanhood have included me jogging completely dressed as a woman, both in running suits and in running shorts and tank tops. (I own three women's running suits/warm-ups and several summer outfits) I have done this about 50 times and most of the time I have been hardly noticed. However, on rare occasions I have been whistled at and have had cat calls. On several occasions I have been beeped at when I was wearing women's jogging outfits running across the two mile long bridge between Oregon and Washington State. More exciting was one time when I was running as a woman in the early evening at Ft Walton Beach FL. The sun was just starting to go down. I was dressed in a white sleeveless mesh Ft Walton T Shirt, girl's violet colored beach shorts, a very noticeable white bra and a shoulder length brown wig. I also, I had a dark tan and had shaved down both my legs and arms. While I was running a male jogger caught up with me from behind and when he came up he said he was "sorry to frighten" me. In my best female voice I said "hi" to him and he was close enough to me that I noticed his dark leg hair and muscles. I was real nervous that he would try to start a conversation with me and discover I was a male but he did not. Instead he just slowed down for a few moments, to check me out, and the continued his fast pace leaving me behind. Boy what an adrenal rush that was. Once I went swimming at a public pool in a women's full-length bathing suit. It felt really funny - the feel of the suit in the water. I have also dressed as a woman bicycler about 20 times. However, this has some saddle issues. As a ballet dancer I have often tried on the female ballet outfits but I have never been in-fem on a stage. During several of my road trips I have driven hundreds of miles fully dressed as a woman. Because I had a large sun roof on my car, the truckers I passed had a clear overhead view of me and at least two of them beeped at me as I passed. (I think I know why) I have also gone on several evening walks dressed as a woman. I just had to watch my voice pitch when I said hi to people I met on the path. My wife has helped me dress up over the years and has taken many pictures of my looks. She helped me practice my walk movements and I have been told I have natural hip motion. Many of my photos are in her outfits. We have even done comparison photos. Because she stated to work-out she had a lot of her older clothes that no longer fit that she gave to me. She often has told me that I rival her in looks, which has led me, and us, to father two very attractive girls.

When in men's clothing in the last five years, ... This Part Shortened due to limit on this site .... View my page at TG Forum for entire narrative .... Many times I sense people are staring at me and I am sure they are trying to figure out my gender.

Lately, I have tried some of the forbidden beauty shop services for men. ... This Part Shortened due to limit on this site .... View my page at TG Forum for entire narrative ....

Today, I find myself wearing more and more women's style clothing articles on a day-to-day basis. ... This Part Shortened due to limit on this site .... View my page at TG Forum for entire narrative .... I often wear lingerie around the house and my wife is supportive. She has bought me several outfits that match hers; unisex style women's wear blouses and pants to wear when we go out.

So why do I do all of this – trying to look like a woman. I think some of it is because I have some feminine characteristics that I cannot change. The other is to express myself for who I really am. I actually feel free when I look like a woman. So, I definitely understand all those who need to express themselves and those who need to change themselves. If there weren't so many boxes we are put in by gender typing then I think the world would be a lot better for all of us.

Dawn
Thoughts - Updated Oct 2014 smile.gif (Note: Give my TG Forum photo gallery a look - I have posted over 100 photos - so you can know me better - Please make comments - Best wishes - Dawn13) Since the above summary much has changed. I wear women's clothing almost all of the time now and I have been taking strong female hormones and have dieted myself into a very feminine body. I really pass well and I enjoy this. Dawn